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aku nggak tau mau nulis apa, tapi yang jelas aku seneng baaanngeeettt.

Masih inget apa yang aku posting di line, tanggal 12 Dec 2015?

"I do want to have my own fairy tale"
ya, aku nulis itu di timeline, gegara baca novelnya ika natassa, dan juga cerita-cerita orang kantor bagaimana mereka menemukan pasangan hidupnya yang berasa kayak cerita negeri dongeng. amajing, kalo dibandingin kisah kehidupan asmara ku (ceileh) yang lebih mirip sinetron sinetron di indosiar, full of drama and termehek mehek.

But...
yep, you reached my hand gently. you take me to re-write our fairy tale.


Everything begins with my prayer in every night..
and suddenly I dreamed of you.

"aul, aku tiba-tiba mimpi dia. apa aku kangen ya?"

Do you miss me too at that time?

...

"aku tiba-tiba mimpi, kamu udah nikah aja"
"ha? nikah sama siapa?"
"sama oom oom, entah, pacarnya si maia estianti"
*jatoh*

"aku jarang mimpi, tapi sekalinya mimpi malah bikin sakit hati.."
"eh...."

...

It was so nice to talk to you, but.. It feels like you've changed into different person that I don't know..
It was hard to talk to you. Bukan masalah waktunya sih. Tapi aku nggak tau mau ngobrol apa sama kamu, mengingat kita nggak pernah ngobrol lagi sejak 3 tahun yang lalu.

...

11 July 2016

Dewanti, 4.44 a.m :
Logi.. I want to say sorry .. because by all these time, I've been cruel to you. I was wrong, that was not fair, and I was really such an *sshole. I am really sorry..

And one more thing to say
Please don't get me wrong, I don't expect anything from you..
Thank you for these whole week, Thank God I was be able to meet you..
and yes, I miss you, Praf Nahlalogi. And I don't care what do you think of me after this.
I just want to tell you that..

Thank you for reading this. I'll be flying to Jakarta soon.

setelah kirim pesan itu, aku terlalu takut untuk tahu balasanmu, hp kumatikan, dan kuaktifkan lagi setelah landing di HLP.

And your reply... make my adrenaline rushing.

Praf Nahlalogi, 5.53 a.m
"kalau gini bisa dibilang pas lah ya momennya, balikan yuks?"

Kamu gila ya? :))

lalu kamu protes

"lah ini, kenapa bilangnya baru pas mau balik ke jakartaaa"

maaf, aku nggak punya keberanian sama sekali kalau bilang waktu liburan :(

and I begin to call you with your old nick name : bee
and you begin to call me with my new nick name : bi

"bi? what does it stand for?"
"bi - bidadari."

ah.. seandainya kamu tahu, aku udah bukan "bidadari" yang dulu lagi.. I've done a lot of sins.

But, yeah.. you were there, reaching my hands.
you accepted all my past.

"kosan aku sepi banget sekarang, pada keluar semua malem mingguan"
"loh, memangnya sekarang kita ga malem mingguan?"
"eh..?"
"memangnya kita sekarang ga pacaran, telfonan begini?"
"lah? memangnya situ pacarku?"
"loh, bukan ya?"
"emangnya aku mau? :p"
"yaudahlah, terserah aku mau dijadiin apa, tapi you tetep stay by my side ya!"
*blush*
"kamu jauh sih bi...."

ya, aku akuin, kamu berubah. Kamu berubah jadi lebih baik. Jauh lebih baik dari logi yang aku kenal dulu.
But one thing that I could still remember clearly. Your eyes. Your eyes which looking at me lovingly. Through deep in to my heart (lebay)


yah, terimakasih, Nahl. terimakasih atas semuanya.
we wil take the relationship slow, but sure, karena kita masih mengejar mimpi masing-masing.

take me back to the old me, bee.. take me back to our 23 <3